Pregnant, confused, desperate?

hi, i really am in an awful situation, i have fallen pregnant- this was unplanned and a complete shock as i was using the pill and never took it late or missed any. my boyfriend has been violent to me a few times and even once after i told him i was pregnant... i tried to forgive him because of the baby but he just keeps being so nasty to me and whenever we argue he tells me to get rid of the baby and he hopes i die. he always seems to do it when i start to feel a bit mre positive about the baby and then i go back to square one feeling scared and lost. i really dont believe in abortion as im terrified of the procedure and to me it just doesnt seem right to do that to a baby, however far along you are... yet my mind is torn now as i dont knw what to do for the best, save this poor child from a father like him and free myself and my two year old son(who i had from a violent ex) from him or continue with my pregnancy alone with no one, my parents have disowned me and i have few friends. this really is a terrible time for me, i see no future ahead, i just wish he could see the pain he is making me go through by being like this. please if anyone could help me to decide what to do i would be grateful, i really dont know what to do and i am so scared. i always said when i next had a baby it would be with someone who loved me and i could experience what that felt like but now it will never happen....thank you for reading my question i hope someone out there can help me, ive tried praying but it seems no one is listening.x